Overanalyzed & Overlyexaggerated

My name is Emerald, I'm 23, and graduate from VCU. I studied Criminal Justice and Sociology and graduated in December 2013. I am currently a corrections officer for juveniles. I am also an aspiring YouTube beauty guru and freelancing makeup artist (go figure). I have had a difficult life and a journey non the least and still have my tough days but I try to live my life as positive as possible while also being the person to tell you about yourself. I plan on doing EVERYTHING I've always wanted to do plus some! We're only given one life so let's live it to the best of our abilities!

This acid reflex is no joke

Im so bloated, I look pregnant and my stomach has been hurting all day but theres nothing I can do about it until tomorrow morning; after my food has digested. image

Can I rant for a second?


Has everyone seen the nail polish that changes color to detect if your drink has been drugged? 

I think this is a great idea and all but it truly has made me upset. Why it is the woman’s job to make sure she’s safe? Why it is that a woman can’t wear a short, revealing dress, a pair of short shorts, a crop top, or a bathing suit without having to deal with cat calls?  Why can’t a woman go to a bar or party, set her drink now and expect to pick it back up in the same condition? WHY IS IT THE WOMAN’S JOB TO MAKE SURE SHE WON’T BE RAPED?! I don’t get our society. Maybe we should teach our men to not rape, to not sexually assault, to not abuse, and to not harm someone’s sister, mother, aunt, cousin, and/or friend. Maybe we should teach our men that if the woman says “no”, the man should’t call her out of her name but respect the fact that she turned you down, and keep it moving. Maybe we should teach our men to keep their penis’ in their pants unless its consensual sex. Maybe we should teach our men that cat calling is disrespectful. Maybe we should try teaching our men not to be disrespectful to women so they can be safe and people do not have to create nail polish to detect drugs. 


P.S. This isn’t about all men just a few men.

I wrote this tonight because I am absolutely tired. 

Life is amazing right now minus not having steadily income aka a job. I’m head over heels in love with the most amazing guy I’ve ever met, my health is SO much better than it has been in the past six months, I have the most supportive family and friend backing up everything in my life, I have somewhere to stay, a car to drive, food to eat, and plenty of opportunities for adventures that are free. I’m super happy right now…now if I can get a job, I’ll be over the moon.

I will be doing a full update on my situation shortly…in the next few days. Things are still not 100% worked out just yet but put it this way, my health is a negative and my job is up in the air due to it. Tomorrow I should have a few things finalized about whats up next.


Sometimes I’m cute.

Sometimes I’m cute.


I’m 100% in love and so happy with John. 

We’ve been doing amazing thus far. 

If there’s anything in my life that makes me feel whole, its him. 

Work may suck which kind of ruins everything else for me except him. 

life update 4.10.2014

Life is busy but wonderful. I love my job still, I’m moving back home on Saturday, and my sleep schedule is completely out of whack but I’m super happy with where I am now. Its kind of funny but some of the people at my work still act like they are in high school,which I think is common everywhere, but what’s funny about it is, normally they would piss me off. Now it kind of makes me feel good to know people hate me haha. I think I’m growing up or being egotistical. Whatever the case, bitches won’t kill my vibe. 

This job academy is a blessing but it takes up all of my time. 

I have an exam tomorrow and all I’ve been doing today is studying for it but I have almost everything down. I have to go to bed every day by 9:30pm and be up for work every day by 6:30am. Honestly I thought I was finished with school but the academy is all school right now. I’ve also met some amazing people that I will be working with for a while so that’s great. I can also get as many tattoos as I want (except explicit ones). 

I really love my job and I’m so grateful for it.


Work was awesome today

It was great. We got to tour the two facilities that we could be placed at once our training is done. One of them is in the middle of no where and I mean NO WHERE. The other one is close to a mall and near some of my family. I think if I pass my training class I’ll have to stay with my uncle no matter which one I get because its far from me. I loved one of the facilities and the staff. The other facility wasn’t my cup of tea but knowing my luck, I’ll be place there (but it is closer to my house but even closer to my uncles house). We will see :)

First day of work was today

It was okay. We were “trained” by HR, even though they didn’t train us. It was boring to say the least but I’m lucky for this job because it’s not like regular corrections so they shouldnt be too hard on us. 

Today freaking sucks.